Spoiled little fly....Amber

Okeee...I don't quite understand but lately I've just been really uptight and almost angry at times. And that's so unusual for me and I keep blaming it on school (which is a huge reason because I get so restless and want to do anything but school...) but it should never get to a point where it steals away joy. One of my favorite things on this planet is enjoying a fire right next to any kind of body of water at night time. So this afternoon I laid in the tall grass next to a fire which in turn was next to a ditch full of water...haha close enough right?! And where I HAD found so much comfort and peace in the ministry and activity God had placed me...it's like it's now transforming into this beautiful place of rest. It's starting to be the times when it's just me and God that I feel myself being defined by Him. This is so different than being lost in the opinion of people and fullfillment of actions.
So I laid there and watched this fly drink the last of my Pepsi and wondered if that was the fly's last day to live and if I had made it's life by letting it drink my pepsi instead of killing it. Yup...Me, the fly and God.