Ash...out of brokenness...

It is only here that I can worship God out of my brokenness.

God is most present when I am weak. Should I not therefore be most thankful when I am broken, in pain, and in upsetting circumstances? In my deepest place of dissatisfaction and insufficiency, there is the greatest opportunity for me to really see Jesus. It's not usually my tendency to look with optimism and gratefulness when I am in that place though. My tendency is to get angry and upset, to want to give up and run away. I need a change of heart. I need new eyes to really see my soul. When it seems most destroyed and hopeless, it is actually then that thankfulness to God is best given. I want rejoicing to be the first thing on my lips when life around me gets the darkest. I want my priority to be to look for the Holy Spirit in that moment. Instead of grumpiness, bitterness, and cynism, I want to be hidden away in the overwhelming strength, sufficiency, and beauty of the Holy Spirit.

Someday I will be with Him in heaven and will be made perfect. I will love perfectly, live perfectly, and see perfectly. It is only here on earth that I can worship out of brokenness. He is made perfect in my imperfection.

Thank You for that. Amen.