Where are we going with this? Amber
It's monday afternoon and school is done for the day. I cannot count the times I've thanked God for such amazing instructors/profs. They honestly just amaze me daily with their patience and involvement in our lives. Because school can literally feel like your life at times. Monday-Friday 8-4pm then countless hours of studying. It can even take over your thought life. BIO-DOME!! It's nice to feel that we aren't just a 9-5 job for them...haha I am often calling my teachers at home! I just feel like I need to express this publically because I don't want to seem like a suck up here at school. I'm so inspired by them. I'm actually in a place right now where I really love school. yeah I know...only took 2.5 years. werid with a beard...
But all of this has lead me to think of the people who influence me in my life. My friends (word...I could go on for pages...PAGES!), my family, my church...the people I work with at Argus...YFC...the list honestly goes on...
BUT...lately even as so much has been happening with YFC, school, work etc...I've let my thoughts drift towards the whole world of relationships. Because honestly...it's freaking interesting. I've stepped back from dating I've been spending extra time watching. Watching how other people treat each other, recieve, perceive, sacrifice and compromise. Esspecially what they compromise. It's unique what you can see in those moments when you aren't so fully caught up in yourself!! And it's not that I'm critical or judging or hard hearted, because I love the idea of love (and that's a whole other topic on it's own) and am quite willing to wait for it. But after coming back from Saskatchewan, many phone conversations, coffees and stories of rape and other atrocities...how is there hope? And no this blog isn't another attack on guys because yes I know girls can't claim any innocence, but it all seems so dark.
YES! I know this blog is about the greatness of God in our daily lives and that's exciting right? Even as I've been processing all of this and making my own opinions/ideas, God has been involved(which surprises me for some reason). There is not a day that has passed without God showing me a piece of Himself in our opposing gender. And it's usually pretty random and I often don't know the person at all. And instead of feeling like I have some kind of weakness by thinking about "relational stuff" I've been trying to learn what in the world it means to "bring God into it". To take my fingers out of my ears and stop saying "lalalala" while distracting myself with other obcessions. To grow up and get wisdom instead of putting on some self-rightous act. Haha and even to take myself a little less seriously. Ahoy! I just say a big AMEN to God being involved in all of this and I'm not sure what else to say about that!
But all of this has lead me to think of the people who influence me in my life. My friends (word...I could go on for pages...PAGES!), my family, my church...the people I work with at Argus...YFC...the list honestly goes on...
BUT...lately even as so much has been happening with YFC, school, work etc...I've let my thoughts drift towards the whole world of relationships. Because honestly...it's freaking interesting. I've stepped back from dating I've been spending extra time watching. Watching how other people treat each other, recieve, perceive, sacrifice and compromise. Esspecially what they compromise. It's unique what you can see in those moments when you aren't so fully caught up in yourself!! And it's not that I'm critical or judging or hard hearted, because I love the idea of love (and that's a whole other topic on it's own) and am quite willing to wait for it. But after coming back from Saskatchewan, many phone conversations, coffees and stories of rape and other atrocities...how is there hope? And no this blog isn't another attack on guys because yes I know girls can't claim any innocence, but it all seems so dark.
YES! I know this blog is about the greatness of God in our daily lives and that's exciting right? Even as I've been processing all of this and making my own opinions/ideas, God has been involved(which surprises me for some reason). There is not a day that has passed without God showing me a piece of Himself in our opposing gender. And it's usually pretty random and I often don't know the person at all. And instead of feeling like I have some kind of weakness by thinking about "relational stuff" I've been trying to learn what in the world it means to "bring God into it". To take my fingers out of my ears and stop saying "lalalala" while distracting myself with other obcessions. To grow up and get wisdom instead of putting on some self-rightous act. Haha and even to take myself a little less seriously. Ahoy! I just say a big AMEN to God being involved in all of this and I'm not sure what else to say about that!
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