hummm da la duh......Amber

Do you ever have weeks that are just really werid? And you don't even know how to describe it and almost perfer to ignore it...
It was a werid week.
The weekend was good...even great! There was this conference with lots of people and lots of excitment about what God is going to go in the days ahead...lots of prophecy and GREAT worship. Plenty of stirring up of the desires that are in everyone's hearts.
And that's the thing that gets to me. The whole "stirring up" of things. Like what does that mean? we get all pumped up about something (can be emotional or can be God) and then Monday morning comes.
I'm just SO tired of living with all of this...stuff...in my heart, and then watching as I compromise it everyday. Instead of talking to that person I put my headphones back on. Instead of studying I play basketball. Why is there such a gap from my heart to my everyday life? That can't be normal.
Anywho...so what if I believe in post-moderenism-Christianity or not...if I had felt something last weekend...if it doesn't change the lives of the people around me and the actions behind my heart. Who are they really seeing when they look at me? Wouldn't it be great to be the shadow of God? to have no weight and to never deal with the pride that comes with spot light (because shadows can't exist in sport lights! mwuahah).
I know these are all pretty random but I like it when God is random and I like it when I feel Him pushing me past my crap. AMEN