Am-23.....How wrong could it be?

hi you. Today was a day in a half shell!! First let me tell you how I was throughly disappointed that my friend Ash from Calgary didn't call :( <--------- Sad face...perhaps teary eyed! Mwuahah now that I got the guilt trip is done, today was a Jesus day just because for some reason He never gives us what we deserve. As werid as it may sound like I spent a lot of today thinking of all the things that I have in my life that I so completely don't deserve. The things that God has just given me...for no reason whatsoever...nothing I deserved...nothing I really achieved. I am in a relationship right now and it just sort of hit me a few seconds ago! As much as it isn't official as of now... it is very very real and I just really can't describe the helplessness of being best friends with the God who wants the very best for me not because I am me...but because He is Himself and that's just what He does! Because in reality...I mean...look at us..we have these flimsy little fleshly bodies that keep nurses like me employed beyond end! And besides that looking into the mental disorders...we are so fragile it's amazing that there's any of us left existing on this earth!