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I am EXHAUSTED!!! I thought I might be helpful to start off this blog with those words so that whatever may come next you can exuse with the statment "oh Ashley's just exhausted". It's also super good news that I decided to walk to the corner store prior to writing this email rather than before. On the walk there I was thinking of what had made me smile today. For this day the only real things I could think of that made me smile were the little moments that Jesus snuck me away. And beautiful 2 story bathrooms in the Banff Springs Hotel. I found it exhausting to be a leader today. The thing I realized today though is that I think people that are under leadership do not realize the stress that it is some days (most days?) to be a leader. All the decisions you have to make, the extreme lackage of excitement in those that you are trying to lead, and the fact that no matter what decisions you have to make will undoubtedly be met with tons of input but no resonsibility by those you're leading. That exhausted me today. I actually did have a fun time in Banff with the girls from my cell group but it was exhausting. Then I stayed downtown to read my textbook for a midterm I have to write this Friday. Meh. Thankfully though I took that prementioned walk to the corner store. It was rainy and cold all day today, except sometime in the 15 minutes it took me to come home from downtown, grab the movie and walk back outside the sun came through and was shining like crazy. The two things that I realized on my walk about being exhausted was this: 1) When you are exhausted you do not care what anybody thinks of you. I danced very slowly down the sidewalk, using my closed umbrella as a baton and I just didn't care what anybody might've been thinking. 2) When you are exhausted you are much more suceptable to being moved in awe of Jesus. He gave me the warmest, most beautiful sunset on my walk back. It didn't take away my exhaustion but it sure did make my exhaustion feel powerless. So there you go. The scattered thoughts of someone exhausted. Now I'm going to go have a shower. If you don't get a blog from me tomorrow, call someone in Calgary to come and get me out of the shower because I surely will still be sleeping in there. Oh oh oh yeah. I almost forget. The other thing that made me smile today is because I had a voicemail on my phone from one of my best friends who eloped this last Friday. It made me feel especially good because I'd been telling her to elope for many months now and I knew that they would eventually. Ha ha, I win. Oh yeah, and it makes me feel good cause the guy she married is awesome and she deserve's awesomness. Oh how I can't wait to tell the masses...MWAHAHAHAHAHA...Rock on Joy Benson! Lol...