Am-7....Brownie...Glorious...Kitchen floor dancing...

Okay...Here we go: A speaker in my psych class was talking about how everyone always wants to play the "mourner" and play the victim and just in general be sad and upset about everything. Whether it be in his/her personal life or what's going on in the world. Yes please help us to prevent Global whinning before we move on to Global warming...haha jk. Okay so I found out this past week that a recent ex of mine was lying to me on many different levels. And he has been away since we went our separate ways, out of my life...gone. So now I find out this information and it distrubs me because I feel like a fool. So what do I do? I start becoming the "mourner" and start dealing with "issues" that I probably don't have but I create in order for me to deal with something...Oh poor me! Never to trust again...wah wah wah. But in reality when I went to God with this today, I realize that I was NOT the fool! I broke things off with him before I even know exactly why and that God had saved me from giving him my heart. I'M NOT ON CRACK AND I DON'T HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT MY STUPIDITY!! haha that may not make sense to most people but it does in my mind. So this leads to my title. I was at home studying for the most part of today and I had a sudden urge to stop and make brownies. And for some reason that lead me to have an urge to dance around my kitchen like a pansey..worshiping God for like half an hour!! And the reason why it was so meaningfull was because this particular person thought that it was stupid that I danced and he said that he wouldn't know what he would do if he ever saw me dance! And I am so free from that and now free to let my heart feel whatever God wants me to feel for this amazing person who is in my life now! AMEN