Am...41...REST...

This afternoon I laid in my bed for approximately 2 hours. Yes I had a final to study for. Yes I had youth to plan for tommorrow. Yes I had bags to pack for my trip next week. Yes I should have been doing anything but laying down. But I just laid there drifting in and out of sleep, and not even worrying about what I was SUPPOSED to be doing as I had just finished some wonderful moments with Jesus and my prayer journal so the only thing that seemed appropriate was to lay down.
I thought about how different life is each day...how much I am loved by my family and that no matter what happens that they love the Lord and how grateful I am for that (and how my sister was losing her mind today! haha)...I thought about what kind of a day Ash was having with her job and hoped that I would talk to her tonight...And I had a really good chance to sit and just appreciate the fact that Jake is coming to visit me the day after tommorrow and the fact that I can talk to him almost everyday and have him in my life...
It was amazing to have rest that you don't have to feel guilty about and to know that it was the only thing Jesus wanted me to do at that moment. And coming out of that time, I saw the world differently and I noticed things that I wouldn't have noticed if I were just rushing around and made decisions that were for different reasons. I guess maybe I felt a little more human rather than a psycho-tasking machine (that operates very poorly for the record). Amen