Ash 33...I QUIT...
Today was crappy (except for a couple of conversations I had). But I have decided that I no longer care. If my teacher wants to fail me, then fine. If my boss wants to fire me, then fine. If my cell group never wants to speak to me again, fine. Quite frankly, they can do whatever they want.
No longer caring does not mean that I will not do my homework (regardless of how late it is), work my best at my job, or love my cell group girls like crazy. I will still do those things. But I will do them as though to the Lord. Quite frankly, neither my teacher, my boss, or even people at my church will determine the rest of my life. Some of them probably think they'd like to. But, ta-diddly-a, Jesus is the ONE AND ONLY who has any say. You don't want to give a certificate or a job or be my friend, then FINE!!!
One of the BEST THINGS too is that Jesus already knows that I work freaking hours at work, He knows that I do way too much correspondance school and He knows all my peculiar personality and behavioral traits. So it doesn't REALLY matter if I fail or get fired or quit leading cell group, because He'll still love me. And He holds all the trump cards.
One final note...this is mostly just so I can remember this thought. Maybe it was never for me not to struggle with stuff. Maybe that's all part of His plan. Maybe it's not the end of the world for me to work crazy hours, fail school assignments, or have my life seemingly overflow with change and stress. Maybe I'm actually supposed to learn to just tell stress to GET OUT OF MY LIFE and let me live with my life regardless of how much damage the earthquake leaves. Let it come. Bring it all. Freaking throw whatever. Because I quit. Jesus is enough and He's all I need.
Quote of the day: "Never tell a young person that anything cannot be done. God may have been waiting centuries for someone ignorant enough of the impossible to do that very thing." G.M. Trevelyan.
Amen to that. Amen.
No longer caring does not mean that I will not do my homework (regardless of how late it is), work my best at my job, or love my cell group girls like crazy. I will still do those things. But I will do them as though to the Lord. Quite frankly, neither my teacher, my boss, or even people at my church will determine the rest of my life. Some of them probably think they'd like to. But, ta-diddly-a, Jesus is the ONE AND ONLY who has any say. You don't want to give a certificate or a job or be my friend, then FINE!!!
One of the BEST THINGS too is that Jesus already knows that I work freaking hours at work, He knows that I do way too much correspondance school and He knows all my peculiar personality and behavioral traits. So it doesn't REALLY matter if I fail or get fired or quit leading cell group, because He'll still love me. And He holds all the trump cards.
One final note...this is mostly just so I can remember this thought. Maybe it was never for me not to struggle with stuff. Maybe that's all part of His plan. Maybe it's not the end of the world for me to work crazy hours, fail school assignments, or have my life seemingly overflow with change and stress. Maybe I'm actually supposed to learn to just tell stress to GET OUT OF MY LIFE and let me live with my life regardless of how much damage the earthquake leaves. Let it come. Bring it all. Freaking throw whatever. Because I quit. Jesus is enough and He's all I need.
Quote of the day: "Never tell a young person that anything cannot be done. God may have been waiting centuries for someone ignorant enough of the impossible to do that very thing." G.M. Trevelyan.
Amen to that. Amen.
posted by Ash-Am at 11:29 PM
1 Comments:
You are just full of the most amazing quote tonight!! look at you quoting it up! just don't ever quit that! haha this probably doesn't make much sense b/c it's 5am...but it's truth none the less
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