Silent Conversations.....Amber

My hands are cold.
Hmmm...so much to say. So much I want to say. besides the fact that my hands are cold.
Driving home from the city I had the most amazing of conversations with God. It has been a crazy week.

Lord,
I just want to run fast; run hard...run into the unknown. I have no idea what I"m diving into. Chasing You hard. I want everything inside of me to swell up into existance. I want to fall, to chase, to pursue, to breath You in and to feel You escape my lungs. To breathe you in more deeply. Just breath more deeply now; I'll take your invitation.

My thoughts are so unorganized. I hope that I can come back and organize them some time. I've stepped away from something that may not come back for a while. Three different people (who know me truely) have told me this week that they don't think that I'm suited for marriage. One of those people was my mother. And it just released something in me, where it's finally okay to want what I want! I guess it was just something that I needed. And I think that we all have to deal with the issue of marriage sometime or another; and it's just been up in my face lately. And not that I have any answers or anything but my mom just was able to release me of her idea of what my future would look like. And I feel wild; that suddenly there are no more rules, that anything can happen; I'm so excited for tommorrow and today and for everything that is happening. Nothing is wasted with God...NOTHING! God is going to hit the kids in this town hard! He is just so good!! SO GOOD!