Ash 9...at the end...

Today was a pretty rough day of dealing with people from work, and then from my cell group, making fun of me. I can take alot of being made fun of, but today they were all making fun of me for the same thing and it really hurt me. Anyhoo, even with that hard aspect of my day there was one beautiful wonderful part. I lead a cell group at my church and tonight we joined a church prayer meeting. I love prayer meetings, because it calls out the true intercessors and people that love and long to pray. Not to criticize other members of the church who love to pray, but when there is a meeting devoted to praying and seeking and crying out to God you get some awesomely crazy people out. God really began to speak to me as we prayed. There was alot of people in the room praying out by themselves, but it's like the room got quiet and Jesus just spoke truth into me. Here is one of the things He spoke to me about: When I get to the end of my life I will not wish that I had watched more television or read more entertainment magazines. I will not wish that I had been more critical or gossipy. Looking back on my life I will not wish that I had slept more or daydreamed more or surfed the internet more. When I get to the end of my days on this earth this is what I will wish: I will wish that I had spent more time reading my bible. I will wish I had spent more time interceding on my face and more time dancing in His presence. I will wish that I had spent quality time with my Best Friend each morning and each night. I will wish that I had spoken kinder and loved with more abandonment. I will wish that I had loved those friends and family that God gave me more like He loves them. I will wish that I had cherished each day on this earth He gave me because it was one more opportunity for Him to love me and give me sunrises and warm rainshowers. At the end of my life on this earth I will look back and hope that I heard every word He spoke to me and obeyed every thing He asked of me. I will hope that I gave my life away to Him--that I didn't try to hold onto my life but I made myself nothing and gave all to Him so that He could be seen. I will hope that I loved my husband and my children as the precious and priceless beings they are to Him. And as my eyes close that one last time and my heart slows it's beating, and I wake up running to Him, I will wish for nothing else than Him. I hope I wish for that tomorrow.