Silence can't really be the key........Amber

Ah this blog won't be long. For one thing I'm sticking to this desk because of the CRAZY heat in this office, and secondly I need to go to the washroom.
But this week has been insane! But I had an amazing drive to work today. I was just driving and out of the middle of nowhere this passion came back to me; a passion that I thought that I had lost (back when I started school 3 years ago...haha just kidding). If I were better at describing things like this...I would in great detail, because I know that you would probalby know what I"m talking about.

Anyways, I started working at my new hosptial job. Haha I have very little idea of what's going on but things seem to be working fine. LOTS of interesting patients. This morning was a slower shift and I found myself bored for the first time. Haha even all the patients were too busy to talk to me! Except for this one older lady who was in isolation. I really liked her when I was working with her, but she didn't talk at all. Actually had absolutely no reaction to anything I did, but her eyes were amazing! I was so enchanted by them; I knew nothing about her, and she couldn't tell me anything! I came back later and just cleaned her room and started singing a song (hey I was in isolation, and she wasn't going to complain!) and she turned around and smiled at me. Hah I didn't know what to do because she finally did something and so I pulled out a Bible that was in her drawer and read her Psalm 37 and 1 Cor. 13.

After reading the "love" chapter I looked back into those eyes and I just imagined all the people in her life that she had loved. Husband, childrend, friends....a deep 1 Cor 13 kind of love that is so lasting. And I thought of how much more amazing that is than my moment of passion this morning in the car.

That brings me to today. I have been a planning QUEEN this week (I've taken a picture just incase this is a once in a lifetime expereience), but this mysterious patient of mine just brought me to a point. The point is is that I want to see at the end of my life...that I have loved DEEPLY the people who are in my life. That even though I wasn't the most organized or effective or passionate or remarkable.....that whoever was in my life, I loved fearlessly.

Those were some crazy eyes....and I finally feel like I"m ready for this summer of ministry.