Ash 35...waking up...

I was thinking today about transitions. The last major transition I had was when I graduated from high school and left Swift Current. Don't get me wrong--I have had many smaller transitions since then, but each of them sort of let into the other. When I left Swift Current it was one of the most freeing and transforming moments of my life. I finally felt free to figure out who I was and to be that person. I finally became me. That move brought me into the 4 craziest and awesome years of my life. In the past 4 years I've spent a total of 10 months living out of the country. I've been to 9 different countries. I've lived in 7 different homes. I've had 5 different jobs. I've spent parts of 3 of the years travelling/working with a non-profit Christian missions organization. I've almost completed a College Certificate Program through correspondance. I've fallen deeper and desperately in love with Jesus. In the past 4 years I have formed some of my greatest convictions and discarded some of the greatest lies in my life. I have struggled with depression and had my greatest moments of joy. It has been quite a journey. And I'm not even sure what about this coming season makes me realize that I'm entering a new transition even greater than the last. Part of me feels like the last 4 years was just an awakening. I rubbed the sleep out of my eyes and began to look around. Now I'm getting out of bed and getting ready. It's time to get dressed, wash my face, find my shoes--make sure that I have everything. It's time to figure out what gets left behind and what I bring with me. I don't know how long this next transition will be or even for sure when it necessarily starts. But I know I'm standing on the eve of something important. I feel okay though. Looking back at this last part of the journey of my life, I know that He has me. That He never lets me get out of His reach. That even in the midst of tears, frustration, lonliness--in the heat of the battle--Jesus' arms are long enough. I don't have to know the way or what lies ahead. I just need Him. Everything else is just sunsets, mountains, and rhinoceros's. Nothing matters except that whether I sleep or run, cry or laugh, run around the world or live on a reserve--I can't keep my eyes off of Him.

Quote of the day: "Those who dream by night, in the dusty recesses of their minds wake in the day to find that all was vanity; but the dreamers of the day are dangerous men, for they may act their dream with open eyes, and make it possible.--Unknown

Song of the day: "I Miss You" (Acoustic Version)--Incubus