Amber...number 89567092876.....
Ah la la...
It's been a werid day. I'm sitting here already knowing that my words will fail to describe anything of what is going on but that's alright! I'm in this transition time ( haha ya for transition right Ash?) and I'm just WAITING for what to do next. But God isn't sitting here asking me "When are you going to do something?" or "What are you going to do now". Why does it seem scarier to do nothing; to have nothing to determine your worth except for the fact that God created you and loves you. period. He doesn't love me because I went to Africa. He doesn't love me because I was a youth pastor or going into nursing. There are so many things that I define myself by. So many reasons why I am an acceptable person or Christian. But when I stop and do nothing; that He loves me just as much as when I do all that stuff...just blows me away. He says "When are you going to be with ME?". Rereading what I wrote it seems like such an easy concept that I should've gotten a long time ago; but I didn't!
It's been a werid day. I'm sitting here already knowing that my words will fail to describe anything of what is going on but that's alright! I'm in this transition time ( haha ya for transition right Ash?) and I'm just WAITING for what to do next. But God isn't sitting here asking me "When are you going to do something?" or "What are you going to do now". Why does it seem scarier to do nothing; to have nothing to determine your worth except for the fact that God created you and loves you. period. He doesn't love me because I went to Africa. He doesn't love me because I was a youth pastor or going into nursing. There are so many things that I define myself by. So many reasons why I am an acceptable person or Christian. But when I stop and do nothing; that He loves me just as much as when I do all that stuff...just blows me away. He says "When are you going to be with ME?". Rereading what I wrote it seems like such an easy concept that I should've gotten a long time ago; but I didn't!
posted by Ash-Am at 9:28 PM
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It seems like those "easiest" and "simplest" concepts are the ones that always knock us over the head way into our lives/Christian walks. Like right now God is teaching me that He is HUGE and big enough to be everything in my life...shouldn't I have gotten that sooner? I love you though Am, and by journying through the transition you will come out even awesomer and weirder on the other side...I can't hardly wait. I love the line--"He says, 'When are you going to be with ME?'" In honor of that here is a quote that has really been speaking to me lately...
"It seems to me that there are but a few who really live with a passionf or God--especially a passion just to be with Him. Today there is such a noise coming up before the throne of the Most High--the clamor of so-called praise, singing, and joyful shouting. But I wonder if the same people who love to sing and shout, loudly exclaiming the praises of God, really have such an intense glory in their secret life with the Lord. When the meeting's over and there's no one there to listen except the only One who matters, do you still have that same passionate joy in your spirit, just to be alone with the Living God?"--Keith Green
I LOVE YOU AMBER!@!!!*^!!
~Ash
Hey Ash...nice quote! you know what makes my day...mwuahha! How do we ever explain these "easy" concepts? It's like the English language doesn't have the words or capacity to explain these things even in those breif moments where it's revealed to us...AH!
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