The Art of Intimacy........Amber

Wow I've been thinking for a while, how I was going to be able to describe this last week and a half. IT's been incredible and hard and wonderful!! I've been in Saskatchewan participating in a program called Street Invaders for the past week and a half and it's been intense! The first night there, we were in a staff meeting/chapal and during the worship I thought to myself, "Wow I forgot just how much I love loving God". Like, for one thing...it's amazing that God loves us...but then on the other hand it's crazy that he wants our imperfect love! My unfinished, raw, imperfect love!

So it's been a yearish since I last remember dancing (worship). God and I haven't had "a dance" in a long time and I thought that maybe bootcamp would be a great time to pick because it's a pretty open and safe place. But before bootcamp even started the creative arts worship leader asked if I would be willing to work with them and it was CRAZY! I said yes! Ah man...I danced like everyday with God and it was just SOO intimate and wonderful! I have so many unforgetable memories from this week. Memories that God and I will share for forever and no one else!

So yeah after a long year of working and stretching (although the stretching is still happening) I finally feel like I"m entering into a time of intimacy with God and also the people around me. I know that relationships are hard and involve work and stretching, but it's different. You don't receieve intimacy from tasks. So even during bootcamp it was full of just spending time with God without worrying about accomplishing anything while doing it.

And then through people in my life like Evan and Ashley, I've just been experiencing different depths of relationships that I haven't experienced for a while.... I got to spend some time with Ashley at bootcamp...and the night before I left back for Stonewall she sneaked into my room, woke me up, and said good bye. Even though I know I'll see her in a couple of weeks....I was just so blessed for some reason! And then seeing Evan for the first time in like a month and a half was just absolutely amazing and incredible. I'm so excited about moving to Winnipeg and seeing what God has for us there!

So then today I had off from work. AT first it was a little werid because it's been a while since I haven't been working. But then I just spent the entire afternoon with God. Honestly I could've just sat in my living room writing in my prayer journal, reading the Word, listening to worhsip music...ALL day! I'm so grateful for the closeness I've felt with God lately. I know it's not always that way in the Christian walk, but I love it!! I can't get enough! Even tonight I went to a Third Day show with my friend Aimee and I just wanted to jump out of my skin! I don't even like Third Day! ahhah.

God is soooooo goood...just absolutely everything I need!