Ash...top 5...

So I've been thinking alot about relationships lately...(insert my own very cynical laughter...ha). I blame it on the fact that Jesus has been speaking to me alot of my and His relationship so out of that I am thinking about alot of the relationships I have. Lately, it's been specifically the "boy-girl" relationship. Now let me make one thing crystal clear--I do not have a "relationship" at all. But over the last, oh say, 21 years of my life (not quite that long) I've had a weird mindset when it comes to boys. I used to not want to get married at all. Then Jesus did alot of healing in my life to where I actually moved to the point of desiring marriage. Now I'm working on getting to a healthy middle place. OH but you ask, isn't it good to desire marriage?--well friend I would say that depends on what marriage means to you. Too many people fall in love and get married because that's just what you are taught to do in life. The natural procession is high school, either post-sec or job, then marriage & family. It's hard not falling into the trap of lie that says you have to get married. Paul says himself that it's better if you don't. Anyways I'm getting off topic. What I really wanted to say was that Jesus has been teaching me so much about being single lately. I used to call boys the "dream-stealers"...mwahaha. And I was genuinely afraid of that. In the spirit of that I was thinking today about all the dreams I have in my heart that I would totally do if I stayed single and God released me into them:

1) I would work in the slums in Caracus, Venezuela.
2) I would teach english in the Philippines.
3) I would back-pack across Eastern Europe.
4) I would move to Winnipeg and work with Aboriginal people in the inner city.
5) I would live in Germany for a year and write.

Hmmm...makes me think. I havn't spent much time really dreaming for quite some time and it feels so good to do it again. I find so much of my life energy is spent trying to figure out today and tomorrow that I forget about all the excitement and hope my life holds inside of itself. What would you do if you could do anything? What's your top 5 list? If there were no expectations on you from other people or from yourself what you dream about doing? Hmmm...I love it.