Is it really oposite day?.......Amber

It's been such a strange weekend. Oy! Things have been on a changing rampage and I really am kind liking it! Seeing family, ministry, friendships in a different light. I actually ran into someone I was friends with in high school. I hadn't seen her in like 4 years and it was really interesting finding out what she's been doing these past few years. And I realized just how much has happened and that everyday brings on a different world. Seems like everything I've said that I would never do...I do. And everything I said I HAD to do....I haven't done. Maybe it's just because sometimes there is something in my spirit that rebels against God's Will without me knowing. Because doing the things I never said I would, has brought so much more joy and freedom than I could've ever made for myself. Using words like "never" or "should" are usually dangerous. Cause really...who can say "never" besides God?! Dangerous vows.
I am very focused but I don't know the next step. Sometimes it feels like this bridge. I know it's the bridge I'm supposed to be on...but what's on the other side? Hmmm...that whole trust thing again...