Then the light turned on.............Amber

This is a picture of me and Robyn. It was taken a couple of years ago when we were buying our first set of scrubs. We had ended up in some kind of warehouse where they only do shipping out and massive orders of scrubs...but the man was really nice and gave us this huge discount! But he took a picture for his advertising....it was SOOOOOO funny.....and a little sketchy at first; but it all ended well!

Tommorrow marks the first day of exam writing. The Lifeforce team that has been visiting us for the past few days have left and I am forced to face the reality that I have a TON of work ahead of me. There's something about studying that just makes me grouchy and on edge. It's like some kind of force(probably something similiar to the phenomenon of procastination) takes my brain, grips it, and then shakes it around until I get so annoyed that I stop! I know that I sound like I"m over exaggerating, but it's been driving me crazy! Something inside of me is just so rebellious to studying. I LOVE learning. Hands on learning I can do for hours and I do well in my clinicals. Even sitting and listening to lectures is alright because you can ask questions and get involved. But sitting in my room and forcing myself to read has not been working for me.

So I was having breakfast with my mom this morning and she brought be back to the memories of when I first started nursing. There were all these miracles that had brought me to this point that I had completely forgotten about. For an example...I was applying to get into a pre-nursing course (because it let me skip the 2 year wait list, updated all the courses I needed and allowed me to work on some of my first year nursing courses) and I had to go in to write a test. On the way driving to the school my car broke down in the middle of rush hour traffic, but someone helped me off the road and fixed my car. Then I got to the college and found out that there was a 25$ fee for writing the exam and that this was the last opportunity to write it. I had NO idea, and I had NO money at all on me, but the man behind the counter just winked at me and said that I didn't have to worry about it and he signed me off as being paid. My mom still thinks that was an angel! :) Then I ended up being accepted into this pre-nursing course in which was a "mistake" because it is only specifically for mature students, english as a second language students, and single parent students...of which I am none. My teachers told me that they have no clue how I got into the program and then I got to share with them my faith! It was so crazy...my other friends tried to get in but they couldn't.

So yeah, there are a few other moments of grace that God has given me these past couple of years and no matter how busy I get, He keeps my marks at an honorable state. It's so humbling knowing that the only reason why I have made it this far is because of Him, but these reminders give me peace for today and encourages me to do my part in being responsible in what God has given me. To discipline myself, not so I can achieve a certain mark, but so I can learn the material that GOD has given me to learn.

And on that note...I should go study....YAY