blurring the details........Amber

I've been having so much trouble lately collecting my thoughts; so much has been happening around me that it all seems to be blurring at times! Life can just be so unforgiving; with cars that break down, rear-ended accidents that occur, thumbs that get sprained, kids who continue to test your love, slushies thrown in anger (haha), paper work that only pile toward the sky, classes that never end, stomaches that don't settle, feelings of missing people who never seem to come home, and disciplines that are left for Monday (or was that the Monday after next?!). It's not that I feel stressed out, but more so that I'm swept away at times.

But today at the drop in center was one of those unexpected-crazy-out-of-the-norm days! I'm surprised that there was anything left at the YFC center left unbroken. My mind was going a mile a minute and nothing was going seemingly well. Finally at the climax of the night, I had to have a serious chat in the office with one of the girls I knew really well. She had done something completely inappropriate and out of character. So as I waited for her to come, I just felt all of the obsticles of the day melt away and just peace came into the office. I can't describe it; I had this overwhelming feeling not to be concerned with what she had done, but rather that God was going to show me something deeper. And we sat there and talked about some crazy stuff and we got to pray together for a long time! I don't know, tonight felt like such a fight and God was so present in everything. I just felt like God was letting me see so many things about the kids tonight. I know that probably doesn't make sense (and I'm starting to get tired)... but it's incredible how clear God is when we need Him to be.

As Thomas Aquinas would say, "I would rather feel compassion than know the meaning of it". I say the same thing for life. I would rather live in the God Moments than understand everything about this blur called my life or future.